My Diary

Iam back to the blog. I slowed down things at work end and took an extended leave. While I am studying and being with my family, I get time to reflect. And then i analyse a lot like a true Virgo. Mostly myself, my selfless loving family, life and my priorities. I have begun to like not being rushed, having time to read new books, to just breathe, to see the big picture and voila i have time to meditate and practice Sudarshan Kriya. In these times when the world around is so chaotic the kriya fills me with hope and positivity. It energises me to take each day head on. They say when life gives u lemons,,,, make lemonade what else. So while I heal from years of tireless hardwork and self neglect kriya helps me to connect dots better. I realised Whatever happens it happens for a reason. Whatever hardships you go through god always has a plan for you. It is ok to slowdown and catch your breath, its ok to live each day as it comes, it is ok to not have a plan. I was this control freak who...

Am i the the commanding manager at work or the submissive mom who lives to cook n feed? Am i the romantic at heart or the groaning mid life wife? Am i my golden highlights or the greys that catch me in the sun? Am i the considerate friend or the do not disturb, i am in my world loner. Am i the roast coffee girl or adrak ki chai person? Am i kind or i am weak? Am i the shy and quiet or the bubbly of the party? Am i a dreamer or the practical doer? Am i the person who is ready to walk a new path discovering trails and quaint places with my family or i wanna rule the corporate? Am i the invigorating snow clad peaks or the quiet of the beach? Am i the lover or an attention seeker? Am i the handloom saree with nosepin n gajra lady or frayed jeans with boots roadie? Am i a religious fanatic or a meditating mystic? Am i this or that or i am more? I am an ocean of contradictions and a bundle of non conformities. But this is what makes it me and my journey my very...

I have been reading books on parenting which started with Dr SPOCks to now the fattest parenting books in the bookstores to principals of ace schools in India writing on how to bring up children. All I understood is more or less message is universal n here it goes 1. Each child is unique and u should not compare children 2. Love them a lot yet discipline them also. 3. Encourage them n appreciate their uniqueness 4. Be there for them 5. Tell them i love you, several times a day 6. Listen to them, be quiet for some time n wait for them to communicate n tell u whats on their mind 7. Do new things now n then together like a new pottery class or rock climbing 8. Teach values n teach them to respect elders n value of sharing 9. Be an example for them, they learn by watching you. Be your best for them 10. Support them always 11. Give them age appropriate chores Tell me whats your mantra for raising kids?

Well, happiness is very relative. Some feel happy on something as small as a cadbury silk n some dont feel that elation even when a promotion knocks their door. I find happiness sometimes even when my little gal chuckles or sometimes eating pani poori. Even buying house, property cars does not make me over the moon. Its in the small things as they say. Connecting with an old friend or family always brings cheers to heart and a feeling that family will always love u hamesha and they never fail to bring smile on ur face no matter whats happening around u. So a family member connected after a long time n it gave me immense satisfaction. Now to update i started doing yoga and sudarshan kriya about a month back and one cant imagine what difference it is bringing to my life. I am no more the dauda dauda bhaga bhaga sa mom. I take pleasure in doing things slowly, i plan well, i am waking early, m so energetic through the day, though initially i felt all drained for a week 10 days, but now lif...

I had been meaning to read this book for over a decade. Ordered it on amazon on a listless day. From the first page I knew my life is changed. This book is a must read. It will nourish you like no parent can and charm you like no lover will. Its words will find you during some of your most vibrant moments and some really low ones. The book, the characters will stay with you forever especially Roark. Read it and keep the feeling safe. The book will raise a lot of questions within you. I am trying to find mine. Happy reading

These days a major part of my day is spent on the streets of Hyderabad. Its really hot and scorching sun here, but luckily no madness of the winters of North. I am happy to have come here. The glamour of Hitec City, the quiet of Hussain Sagar, the pristine Golconda, the hustle bustle of Chaar Minar and the awesome roads and numerous gardens makes for a nice city. Amidst the city's goodness i yearn to be a a child again, i long to visit the cities which acted as platforms to send me here, Lucknow, Allahabad, Kanpur, Jabalpur, Rajkot, Dhrangadhara. Small cities, little pleasures, no traffic snarls and loads of time. I wonder that in spite of reaching where i wanted to, in life, why i don't feel complete and at peace. Why something is always missing. Why i long to go to a quaint town n stay in a rural setting. Sometimes i yearn to be just a housewife and no daily targets and meetings etc. etc. Sometimes i feel fortunate to be working and earning for myself in a stable job. Yet...

I am writting after a long hiatus. It feels difficult to snatch out even a lil time now that my work profile has changed again. No complaints on that front coz this is what i always wanted to do. But, it is showing me a whole new face of everybody around me at work, i am unable to fathom the competitiveness that makes people lie, unable to understand what is more important than hard work and sincerity. Huh, while i pick up the threads around me, i celebrated yet another Birthday with good wishes of my family and good friends. The fitness n healthy living thing took a lil back seat but not for long. All i understand today is: 1. No matter how well you do in life, where ever you have reached, if you don't get time to sit down n have your breakfast, its really not worth it. 2. I will not hurry from this to the next thing, to the next thing, to the next thing, as i had been doing for years to keep things around me moving. I need to live those moments, i need to breathe, feel, exper...