My Diary

These days a major part of my day is spent on the streets of Hyderabad. Its really hot and scorching sun here, but luckily no madness of the winters of North. I am happy to have come here. The glamour of Hitec City, the quiet of Hussain Sagar, the pristine Golconda, the hustle bustle of Chaar Minar and the awesome roads and numerous gardens makes for a nice city. Amidst the city's goodness i yearn to be a a child again, i long to visit the cities which acted as platforms to send me here, Lucknow, Allahabad, Kanpur, Jabalpur, Rajkot, Dhrangadhara. Small cities, little pleasures, no traffic snarls and loads of time. I wonder that in spite of reaching where i wanted to, in life, why i don't feel complete and at peace. Why something is always missing. Why i long to go to a quaint town n stay in a rural setting. Sometimes i yearn to be just a housewife and no daily targets and meetings etc. etc. Sometimes i feel fortunate to be working and earning for myself in a stable job. Yet...

Past month was over before i could blink...We were busy doing up our new place, settling down and office. Evening trips for grocery/ dec'or shopping were a welcome change but tiring. I was often frazzled and snappy. Was wondering where am i headed, why i am always irritated? The stress of doing so much, being at all places, all the time, was getting on to me. Then i started waking up before my usual time to catch up on some project. The project was over in a week, but the body clock remembered the timings, so it became routine to wake up earlier than usual. And, before i knew i started liking the calm of the mornings, the time to plan the day, the space to communicate with myself. Ladies, at the cost of sounding preachy, do take out some time for your own selves when you will not cheelo pyaaz, or put kiddo's dolls back in the basket. You will be with yourself. Throw in a nice mug of adrak ki chai or a bubbling frothy coffee. But nothing else. No magazine, no lappy, no tv, no ...

Hey have been away too long, but then was down with some health issues, and trying to be super! My usual routine was to get up at 5.30 am, do house chores like doing up the house, cooking a breakfast, sometimes lunch also, for hubby and getting the kid and myself ready to go to our respective destinations. When back from work I load the washing machine, cook dinner, tea, small chats with family, arrange clothes in closets, clean up the kitchen after cooking, catch some tv, etc etc. I would usually wind up by 11.00pm. Post one serious health issue which was caused by overworking during a 3 day holiday after a bad work week and few days of bed rest later, I realized that this super duper concept actually is a lost deal. Ya a great mom, a great wife, a great daughter is cool but SUPAAAAA is extreme. It leaves you tired, cranky, irritable and missing out on life. Folks out there who are trying to break their necks out, stretching themselves to no limit to come out as the best person ...